Sep 17 2009
24 Days…Who,what, where, when & how!
I look at the 24 day count now and am baffled that it has been that long since I have had a smoke…What amazes me more than anything, is how fast the time has gone. In the middle of it all, it stretched on forever, but now, each day has blended into the next.
We do such a good job at wasting time as humans. Really. We do it well. What an oxymoron. Time gets spent regardless of what we choose to do with it. I seriously spent a lot of time smoking because I was bored. Smoking filled in the gaps in between things. In my life there have been times when I could have spent a whole day off, for lack of better things to do, doing nothing but watching TV and smoking, even though I can’t stand TV, because of having no idea what to do with myself when I chose to relax. Why the hell do we do those kinds of things?
Anyone have any suggestions, I would love to hear them. 
Now it is not always the foremost thing on my mind, I find myself wondering, what to do next. Looking for things to keep myself occupied so I am not preoccupied with considering filling that time with a smoke. Catch 22> Damned if I do, damned if I don’t.
It doesn’t help that I am by nature, hyper. I would rather keep busy, than sit down and relax. In the keeping busy, I miss things, sometimes very important things. It puzzles me why at 24 days without one, I still give it any kind of reference. I don’t have any idea how to be complete without a smoke. Intellectually, I can consider it, but by my own nature, I cannot see it. Breathe in, breathe out……
I never have smoked, not because I was too good. The only reason I didnt do it was because of my cerebral palsy I figured if I dropped a cigarette and burned myself no one would understand why I even tried it. I thot as a teenager my folks wouldnt understand. But everyone I knew smoked, and had the same problem as yu have. My brother smoked most of his life, and started at age 14. After he got lung cancer he decided to quit. My aunt also smoked and was hyper. She told me she smoked to have something to do . She would do her nails and have a cigarette in the other hand. Good luck on quiting.
Nice to know there are others out there with the same prob I have…palsy> Yeah that would be hard to smoke with that, can’t say I have been there although had many friends that did.
Tomorrow will be 3 yrs smoke free for me….I still look for things to do! It becomes such a part of our “hands” busy work. I would do the whole pretzel rod thing. I did that for about 6 months. It helped my hands and it’s not a giant fat gaining food!!
CONGRATS ON YOUR 24 DAYS!!!
Wow…3 years…that is more than awesome!!! It is my hope that I end up being smoke free for so long that I forget how long it has been LOL.